I think it is pretty obvious that we have been absent from the blogging world for quite some time. At the beginning of October, we lost my father in law to a courageous and hard fought battle with cancer. I personally have felt emotions that I did not know existed. They have been deep and dark. I’m hoping to one day get to a place where I am able to share these feelings with the world, but I’m not quite at that point in the grieving process…
I do, however, want to get back to blogging about the rest of our lives. And there is no better day than today…
As I sit here in the early hours of Harrison’s 1st birthday, I can’t help but reflect on the last 365 days.
This last year has been one for the record books. It is still hard for me to effectively communicate heart. I can get some words out, but I don’t think they paint a good picture of what’s deep inside. Our family has experienced so much joy, and so much loss. We’ve had moments where we felt like we were climbing back up the mountain, only to find ourselves plummeting deep down into the canyon. Through it all God has been so incredibly faithful.
I was looking through pictures tonight, and I came across this one:
To most people, this may look like one of those accidental photos that have no meaning, but I remember snapping this picture to send to a friend asking how I was doing. Although I sent it to her, I took it for me – to look back on in this moment and remember. It was 9:18 PM, on January 16th, 2017. The floor was covered in cars, and crayons, and probably more food crumbs than we could ever count. We had been at the hospital for about 8 hours already, without much progress at this point. Anxiousness was starting to set in. The kids were getting restless. We were so ready to meet our sweet boy. We were so innocent.
Just 15 hours later, we met this little man for the first time.
Our world was rocked.
The next few months were nothing but a blur.
And I wouldn’t change one second of it for anything.
This last year has made us stronger. I am so thankful.
Happy Birthday, Harrison!
Preemie clothes swallowed your tiny 4 pound self when you were born, and here you are today starting filling out 9 month clothes nicely. Those clothes that once looked like pools of fabric draped over your little body look so tiny now. You are now weighing 18 pounds 7 ounces, and you’ve almost grown 10 inches! Three of the cutest teeth peek out with every smile, and I can see two more that are going to poke through your gums at any moment.
You are not crawling yet (although it won’t be long, I’m afraid), but that doesn’t keep you still. I don’t always know how you do it, but getting from one side of the room to the other is a breeze. Pulling up on things is starting to look easy, but we are working hard at correcting bad habits before they become a problem. “Da Da Da, Ba Ba Ba, and Ma Ma Ma” are now regular words in your vocabulary, and tonight you started making this silly little squeal. Dad and I were laughing as we sat in the floor playing with you tonight.
You LOVE to eat! Green beans and egg yolks are probably your favorite things right now. Although you definitely prefer real food these days, you can chow down on a bottle, too! Clapping and playing patty cake are your favorite past times, but peek-a-boo or grabbing two toys and banging them together are quickly climbing the entertainment ladder as well.
Austin, Emma, and Nora are so in love with you, bubs! You are constantly getting attention from one or more of them. I often wonder if you will ever have to learn to do anything for yourself! Nora is constantly in your personal space, and is often knocking you over (accidentally, of course), or dragging you around. It’s a wonder we have made it this far without many injuries. I have a feeling that the two of you are going to get into a lot of trouble together as you guys grow.
You are incredible, and perfect. You are exactly what our family needed, and I could not be more thankful to God for giving you to us. Your smile lights up an entire room, never lose that gift or take it for granted. You have experienced so many “firsts” this year, and I cannot wait to see the “firsts” that this next year will hold. You are going to be a world changer, and your Daddy and I are so happy to have a front row seat. We love you more than you know!!
Happy Birthday, buddy!